A Broken Heart

A BROKEN HEART 

is screaming & begging for a second chance inside.

A BROKEN HEART 

is the emptiness & heart-wrenching feeling you encounter when you see him with his new love.

A BROKEN HEART 

is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you can't fool your heart into believing that you will in fact "Be Alright."

A BROKEN HEART 

is seeing him, & even though it may be the hardest thing that you have ever had to do, you decide to walk away.

A BROKEN HEART 

is listening to that one song that makes you break down over & over again.

A BROKEN HEART 

sometimes means: not wanting to go on.

Be Who You Are

Had a haircut yesterday.The saloon is located at Jalan Putra and named Imprez Hair Studio.It is quite a good saloon for me.Well,holiday gonna to be end soon.Time flies.During this year X'mas finally a bit different with past years.I went to visit Gurney Plaza,Komtar,Queensbay Mall and last Straits Quay to countdown.I stayed at there 3 days 2 nights.Spent a lot of money just to purchase something non sense!Silly enough.But what I bought is what I loved.My lovely sister bought me a new year dress.But I wore that dress to countdown.Visit to Gurney Plaza again when Christmas Eve.And he purposely went to Penang just to meet with me.So touched!So,we went to watch movie,Alvin and Chipmucks 3.And we sat at couple seat❤♥.Actually I didn't pay much attention on it.After the movie,he went back because I scared if later traffic jam then he couldn't rush back to hometown.Went to Bar B Q Plaza to have dinner.But so much disappointed on it.It is ain't not a good dinner and yet quite expensive.And guys,I'm here to strongly introduced you guys go to Straits Quay with your love.It is a romantic place for couple.On the contrary,the shortcoming is there is less shop to let me to shopping at there.So,I went to Secret Recipe to spend time❤♥.Until 11.50p.m everyone was intense.11.59p.m,10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1...MERRY X'MAS❤♥.It can be heard every corner at there.

I hate you much and without reasons.Maybe you will say I have feuds with people over how "fake" they are. Proof me please,bitch!Normally I wouldn't really give a shit because it's just a silly bitch's mind.Yea,you're as pretty as angel.Did you happy?Stop dreaming pleaseeeeee.....You are FUCKING UGLY IN THE WORLD EVER!Shit you!You are so fake you know?Ugly shit woman!

:)

曾经有人告诉我 他不会离开我

一生一世的和我在一起

现在他就把我一个人丢在原地

而我就傻傻地等待他的归来

也许爱情就是如此现实

现实得让人目瞪口呆

我太依赖了

依赖有他的日子

依赖有他的陪伴

其实 我不懂我该怎么适应

但是 只要他开心就好

我?根本不重要

我就是这样的任性

明明不想分开 

却又要他说分手

傻吧?

其实 很想挽留

却因为面子的关系 说不出口

我还很爱你

可是 这句话 还能用吗?

还是应该说过去让它过去?

他曾经向我说过 他很爱很爱我

人 就是这样

谁也无法确认他们给的承诺是多久多长

是我太容易相信别人?

最终 我也不是童话里的公主

他 也不是我的王子

曾经 为了他改变了许多

为了他 和最好的朋友吵架

为了他 放弃了学业

这点或许他不知道  为了他 让多少人讨厌我

为了他 掉了不少不该留的眼泪

到最后 只为了证明我有多愚蠢

多么的白痴

 

是你让我相信世上有幸福，也是你让我知道幸福不是永恒的

♥

Heart Pain :(

I don't like the way you treat me just now

It's so hurt when you talked to me

But you never know

After you asked me:''What?''

My heart breaks in million pieces at that moment

Did you know?

I don't know what should I do but I just know at that moment my tears want to fall down

But as to a girl that indomitable,I said goodbye to you quickly

I just don't want to show you that I'm weak

Opsss...Not just want to show you.

I also don't want anyone know that I'm weak

I want in everyone's view I'm strong never fear to everything

Someone♥

Someone,how good if you know how much I miss you

Someone,how good if you know how much I need a big big warm hug

Someone,how good if we can meet everyday

Someone,how good if you can appear in front of me right now

Someone,how good if we can be happy always

Someone,how good if we can no need to argue anymore

Someone,how good if we can stick together,never separate

Someone,how good if you love me more than i love you

Someone,how good if you could sing a song to me

Someone,how good if the miracle happened on us

How good if all of these could be happened on us :)

Had a phone talk with him just now.

Quite a long time'

I know that during this few days I can't company him how bored he was

Felt sorry to him

He is really a childish boyfriend.

He is also a cute boyfriend!

He likes to manja with me always

Just like the way I'm bigger than him

I like him so much

And I guess,he will never know that how much i love him

Now,he just had a haircut

He sent me his pictures

I laughed non-stop!

He is really cute for me

Maybe from other's point of view,they don't think so

But for me,he is really super duper cute

#Follow your heart, because it knows what you truly want to be, but don't forget to take your brain with you#

A Letter To Her :)

So many complicated feelings now

My dude-Moh Peik Shya

She had given herself a task

She wanna to give up her lover

A person that he never deserved what she gave to him

He,is really a stupid guy ever

And same,she is also a stupid girl

And finally,this time she made a decision that I'm sure that everyone will glad after hearing

SHE REALLY WANNA GIVE HIM UP

A short letter to you

I know it's not easily to give up someone that you once or now you love the most

Time will heals everything

You still have friendship,the love and good care from your dearest family members

Find someone that who can make you smile and never make you cry 

It's important to you 

I hope you well

:)

Smile always,no matter what happened :)

Happy Holiday!

#When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations,it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end-Stephenie Meyer#

My uncle drove mummy,sister,auntie,grandma and I to have a breakfast today with auntie's new car.It was a not bad breakfast for me.But it can't heals my stomach to be full.Peeps,it is already holiday,right?Now I exiled myself-an action that I took in great horror.I wanna to go to Penang badly.I loved Penang.I loved the food at there.I loved the vigorous,sprawling city.But desperately,mummy is still busy with her work.So,we have no guardian to bring us go.By the way,mummy has do a plan to bring us to have a travel at Cameron Highlands and Genting Highlands with my big big family.*Expected HIGH*I never go to Cameron before.See from other's photos,Cameron such as a peaceful,comfortable place for travelling.I love this type of place.Addition,I don't want always stay at home and doing nothing at home.I hate this type of feeling.It feels suck and bored:( Seriously,I think I'm really erratic.Hmmm...I want to have a hair cut badly.Without any reason,I want to have a shorter haircut!

That's all for today's short post.Stay tuned,I'll be back as soon as possible :)

Saturday again!Have any plans?I'm just at home whole day and face with the laptop.*So fcking bored here*

Be yourself:)

How long did I didn't updated blog,I don't know.Sorry for my laziness.Dear followers,holiday is just started a few days ago.How any plan during this 1 week holiday?For me,I really don't like holiday.It is so bored to me.I have nothing to do.I can't meet with my baby.I miss him,and he will miss me badly too!*Sighed*By the way,dear followers I have a trip to Hatyai on tomorrow.I just expect for the Thai-Food!Crabsssssss and seafooddddd.Oh my goodness!So much calories.Aiksss!I don't care!I want to enjoy my Thai-Food!!!!And I will buy some souvenir for my buddies too,no worry:)

Lately,I've changed a lot.I realise it.'m no longer not a happy kid anymore.I used to let my tears accompany almost everyday.I feel sorry to myself.I can't tolerate.I have always been understood by others.I have bad disposition.I lazy to explain to them!I just used to cry alone inside the toilet.LOL.It is true,don't doubt.Haha!I know I'm silly and crazy.But I'm who I'm.Don't pay much attention of that!

Nobody really cares if you're miserable,so you might as well be happy

Be aware!Humans are really terrible

I dislike them badly.How can they so fake?I can't get imagine that my friends also joined them.How disappointed I'm now.Just try to imagine.No one will know how is my feeling now.*Sighed*I should used to it.When my friend told me,believe me I was pure disbelief about that.I get shocked.It is just like a drama.Everything can happened in our daily life.I realized it.So,should I thank them for free me one lesson about that?I think,I should.For what I can tell them is STOP GOSSIPING AND TALKED MY BAD WORDS ABOUT ME ANYMORE.You all don't know me.You all don't know my really real side.I really hate you all,do you all know?You all are so terrible.Oppsss.I'm wrong.Should be-Humans are the most terrible among the world:)

Huh.Stop moody because of them.Well,later will have a dinner with my grandma them.Because today is my grandma's birthday.Teehee.Gotta to have a dinner with her and also my superb big big family.Long time didn't gather together already.

Stay tuned

Guys:)

I'll be back

Keat Hwa Idol and Family's Day :)

What the fuck now!I'm so fucking happy and excited now!Reasons?

• Later I'll be joined the Keat Hwa Idol
• The first time I join the Keat Hwa Idol
• Going with him
• I miss him and later will meet him already:)

Going to wear dress later.Wear a simple dress,a simple shoes and a bag.Wont be make up later.Just be a lady later.Teehee.

The most scary Family's Day

Out of my thought,my class teacher just have a quite short talk with my mummy.I never thought!Below will be the conservation between my class teacher and my mummy

Teacher:Budak ini sentiasa keluar dgn kawan baik dia,Jenny

(My mum didn't say nothing,because she knew that I'm an active student)

Teacher:BM dia sgt teruk!Dan dia telah gagal dlm BM dia

Mummy:Saya tau(My mummy showed her smile to my teacher)

Teacher:Oh ya?Dia(Me!Me!Me!She meant me!)sudah memberi tahu kepadu kamu?

Mummy:Ya

*I just write a short part only.Because of,I'm lazy.Teehee*

And I promised to myself,I'll work hard and hard for my next examination

No more fail!!!!!

Just a short and simple post for this time.

Stay tune,readers:)

Take Care of My Heart

Yesterday was a nightmare to me.My tears had been burst out without controlling.Till now,I'm still feeling unsafe.Don't asked me why lately I will be so emo.I surely wont answer you.Sorry.I don't know where should I start to tell you.Believe me,it's so complicated.If you treat me as your friend,lend me your shoulder.That's all!I really need it.Feeling that everything have changed in the blink of eyes.Including him and my friends.Sometimes,my sense can be finction well.I can guess what are you thinking about.I just chose to keep silent.

I thought he will understand what I'm thinking about.But,it's not true in the reality.I'm really tired and fed up with my life now.Can the time let it passed through easily?I'm really not so strong as you all think.I'm also a human being.I'm not really happy recenlty.Who knows?Who cares?No one cares anymore.I'm still alone when I'm in trouble.

I have promised myself before,wont cry easily.Be strong.But I've lost my words.Today also not a good day for me.Life is more meaningless. and life is no more sweet as before!

She is not enough strong :)

When I say sorry,believe me I feel it.When you see me starting to cry,hold me and tell me everything's gonna be alright.When I ignore you,give me your attention.When I was quiet,ask me what's wrong.When I push you or hit you,grab me and don't let me go.When I was mad and I walk away from you,follow me.When I say I love you,don't doubt.I mean it :)

Say you love me,say you want me back.Say you're sorry and take me in your arms and kiss me like you never had before.Tell me evrything's gonna be okay again.That you want me and just me and you'll stop hurting me.Tell me she's whore and simply a mistake.Tell me you need me because I need you more than I've ever needed anymore.You were only the one holding me together after last asshole.And once you walked away,I was completely shattered and torn down.

I'm sitting in front of computer and waiting him to online.Silly?Oh yea,I'm silly :) The moment I with him,I feel like I'm just like another person.I think I hide my real-side when I was with him.Don't ask me why.Because even myself also don't know what's wrong.Many times,I cried for him.Just for some stupid things.I hate myself.I hate myself always don't know how to take good care of him.He is always feeling not well.I don't know what I can do.Useless me,I keep on blaming myself.Blaming myself because I can't do anything at that time.I'm not a perfect girlfriend,perhaps.

A short letter for him,

I don't know will you follow my blog.I don't know will you see this post.I just want to tell you,I know you scared me to simply thinking of non-sense.Stupid,I wont simply believe what others say.I believe you,I promise you=) Today,after I telling you something,you showed me your black black face.So fierce for what?Anything I do wrong,forgive me.I don't really mean it.Sorry lak :( By the way,you know I love you,not?Hehe.Are you have the same feeling with me?

#If you make the mistake once,it's not the end of world.Just don't make that mistake twice#

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26.04.2011

:)

She just loves to smile and tend not to care about it.

I Wanted You

I wanted you to fight for me.I wanted you to plead to know the meaning behind my''Nothing is wrong''.I wanted you to keep your promises.I wanted you to be there.I wanted you to understand and not threaten to send me away.I wanted you to not make me wait.I wanted you to show up at my door,take me into your arms,and kiss me.I wanted you to want me as muck as I wanted you.

Friends are complaining that I'm emo lately,even a stranger also told me like that.I just smile to them and say:''Am I?''Guys,I know I'm emo recently.I know.I tried to be strong and smile to all my friends and say,I'm okay.No worry.I'm okay now,friends.I wont cried for that things anymore.Thanks for all my friends that always encourage me.Yin Chien,Jing Ying,Sian Huan,Jenny,Yun Ran,Xin Tian,Wen Wen,Ah Seed and Yee Ling thanks you!

I'm happy now

:)

He,is really a good boy friend :) Friends,am I correct?He wont leave me alone.He listened to me.(PS:It is hard to find a boy friend such as him that treat me so good.Really).Plus,friends do you believe he will manja to me.GOSH!He is just like a 3-years-old kid:) He said he is just 3-years-old and I'm 5-years-old.See,childish iszit?But it is our own style to maintain our relationship.Honestly,I'm a selfish girl.I want him to company me all the time.Beside me when I need him.Hug me when I'm sad and say to me:''Stupid,I'm here.Don't cry.''HAHA.I'm thinking too much,I know.I'm feeling that it's sweet when he is beside me.Awww.I very love him.Got a boy asked me:''What do made you so love him?''Stop doing anything and start to think.I also don't know what point that make me so love him.Awwww.I can't control myself.Someone,help me please.

I can't to get hurt anymore from love.Seriously

:(

09-04-2011

Today,woke up at 6.30am

Just like normal school day

I dressed in with sport shirt and long pants

Put on sun block=)

Around 7.20am,aunty just come and fetch me><

Then,he complained to me that he waited me for 25 minutes already

Oppsss.Sorry><

Reached the school,rushed into my class,4A7

Marked the attendance and take the sticker

After 10 minutes,all students have to assemble at pavilion

During the warm up time,I was too excited and I do something stupid and crazy

I'm still regret why I will do such stupid thing!

I cried after it!

He saw what I've do!

Bashful enough!

And I swear,I wont love this song anymore-NOBODY!

[SKIP]

I was too hot during the long run!

The sun was too pretty hot today!

Whole pack of tissues finished after the run!

There were beads of perspiration all over my body

Rest at canteen.

Actually,I can rest at class one

Because of a girl,I must stay at canteen to accompany her

*Bulb*

[SKIP]

I won the lucky draw

It was a shock to me!

Tired and lazy mode ON

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Dears readers,I'm coming back to write for you all.

He is always like that

Always like that

Always never care about my feeling

Always try to ignore me

Always make me cried

Always hurt me

I don't like my friend treat me like that.Even just a simple friend

I care about all friends.Not just him

A letter to him,

You!Why you always like that?Sometimes treat me good,sometimes treat me bad!ENOUGH!I don't know what the reason that make you treat me like that.Explain to me!I'm enough annoyed!

-Next topic-

During March holiday,I joined the camp.I know many friends from the camp.They let my 3 days 2 night camp more meaningful!The second day make me cried twice a day.The story is so touching.Teacher asked:''How long did you didn't tell your parents that 'I Love You'?''I cried,sighed.When I was young,it is easier to tell my parents 'I Love You'.Considering.Why now,I have no pluck to tell my mummy 'I Love You'?Why?Because of face?No!After I joined the camp,I think I grow up a lot.Really.I start to love my friends,without hate.Try to face everything.Not to evade.The last day,cherish every second,every minute and also every hour we together.At hall,all of us didn't pay much attention to what teacher said.We keep on taking pictures at that time.At here,I want to tell to my friends that I know form camp:''I miss you,fuyohhhh''Miss the time we together!We performed.Not a really excellent perform but for us,it's very meaningful.

-Others-

Tomorrow,I will go to qing ming.A bit expect=)It will be a big gathering for us.Miss all my cousin,aunts and uncles=)

Blog will be updated soon.If I'm free

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Readers,HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!

Exam is just over

Huuuu.This stupid exam bring a lot of stress for me

Add maths,Chemistry,Physics,Biology and also History

Today,this extremely stupid ADD MATHS almost let my tears burst out!

Totally hard and just 70 minutes to let us question

Time is flies!

After an hour,I haven't finish to complete!

Anti-Stress!

As a secondary students,should enjoy our own life!

But not always facing to the books

I love the weeding dress=)

Is too bored,so I go to search for this><

Promise yourself to live your life as a revolution and not just a process of evolution