Saturday again!Have any plans?I'm just at home whole day and face with the laptop.*So fcking bored here*

Be yourself:)

How long did I didn't updated blog,I don't know.Sorry for my laziness.Dear followers,holiday is just started a few days ago.How any plan during this 1 week holiday?For me,I really don't like holiday.It is so bored to me.I have nothing to do.I can't meet with my baby.I miss him,and he will miss me badly too!*Sighed*By the way,dear followers I have a trip to Hatyai on tomorrow.I just expect for the Thai-Food!Crabsssssss and seafooddddd.Oh my goodness!So much calories.Aiksss!I don't care!I want to enjoy my Thai-Food!!!!And I will buy some souvenir for my buddies too,no worry:)

Lately,I've changed a lot.I realise it.'m no longer not a happy kid anymore.I used to let my tears accompany almost everyday.I feel sorry to myself.I can't tolerate.I have always been understood by others.I have bad disposition.I lazy to explain to them!I just used to cry alone inside the toilet.LOL.It is true,don't doubt.Haha!I know I'm silly and crazy.But I'm who I'm.Don't pay much attention of that!

Nobody really cares if you're miserable,so you might as well be happy

Be aware!Humans are really terrible

I dislike them badly.How can they so fake?I can't get imagine that my friends also joined them.How disappointed I'm now.Just try to imagine.No one will know how is my feeling now.*Sighed*I should used to it.When my friend told me,believe me I was pure disbelief about that.I get shocked.It is just like a drama.Everything can happened in our daily life.I realized it.So,should I thank them for free me one lesson about that?I think,I should.For what I can tell them is STOP GOSSIPING AND TALKED MY BAD WORDS ABOUT ME ANYMORE.You all don't know me.You all don't know my really real side.I really hate you all,do you all know?You all are so terrible.Oppsss.I'm wrong.Should be-Humans are the most terrible among the world:)

Huh.Stop moody because of them.Well,later will have a dinner with my grandma them.Because today is my grandma's birthday.Teehee.Gotta to have a dinner with her and also my superb big big family.Long time didn't gather together already.

Stay tuned

Guys:)

I'll be back

Keat Hwa Idol and Family's Day :)

What the fuck now!I'm so fucking happy and excited now!Reasons?

• Later I'll be joined the Keat Hwa Idol
• The first time I join the Keat Hwa Idol
• Going with him
• I miss him and later will meet him already:)

Going to wear dress later.Wear a simple dress,a simple shoes and a bag.Wont be make up later.Just be a lady later.Teehee.

The most scary Family's Day

Out of my thought,my class teacher just have a quite short talk with my mummy.I never thought!Below will be the conservation between my class teacher and my mummy

Teacher:Budak ini sentiasa keluar dgn kawan baik dia,Jenny

(My mum didn't say nothing,because she knew that I'm an active student)

Teacher:BM dia sgt teruk!Dan dia telah gagal dlm BM dia

Mummy:Saya tau(My mummy showed her smile to my teacher)

Teacher:Oh ya?Dia(Me!Me!Me!She meant me!)sudah memberi tahu kepadu kamu?

Mummy:Ya

*I just write a short part only.Because of,I'm lazy.Teehee*

And I promised to myself,I'll work hard and hard for my next examination

No more fail!!!!!

Just a short and simple post for this time.

Stay tune,readers:)

Take Care of My Heart

Yesterday was a nightmare to me.My tears had been burst out without controlling.Till now,I'm still feeling unsafe.Don't asked me why lately I will be so emo.I surely wont answer you.Sorry.I don't know where should I start to tell you.Believe me,it's so complicated.If you treat me as your friend,lend me your shoulder.That's all!I really need it.Feeling that everything have changed in the blink of eyes.Including him and my friends.Sometimes,my sense can be finction well.I can guess what are you thinking about.I just chose to keep silent.

I thought he will understand what I'm thinking about.But,it's not true in the reality.I'm really tired and fed up with my life now.Can the time let it passed through easily?I'm really not so strong as you all think.I'm also a human being.I'm not really happy recenlty.Who knows?Who cares?No one cares anymore.I'm still alone when I'm in trouble.

I have promised myself before,wont cry easily.Be strong.But I've lost my words.Today also not a good day for me.Life is more meaningless. and life is no more sweet as before!

She is not enough strong :)

When I say sorry,believe me I feel it.When you see me starting to cry,hold me and tell me everything's gonna be alright.When I ignore you,give me your attention.When I was quiet,ask me what's wrong.When I push you or hit you,grab me and don't let me go.When I was mad and I walk away from you,follow me.When I say I love you,don't doubt.I mean it :)

Say you love me,say you want me back.Say you're sorry and take me in your arms and kiss me like you never had before.Tell me evrything's gonna be okay again.That you want me and just me and you'll stop hurting me.Tell me she's whore and simply a mistake.Tell me you need me because I need you more than I've ever needed anymore.You were only the one holding me together after last asshole.And once you walked away,I was completely shattered and torn down.

I'm sitting in front of computer and waiting him to online.Silly?Oh yea,I'm silly :) The moment I with him,I feel like I'm just like another person.I think I hide my real-side when I was with him.Don't ask me why.Because even myself also don't know what's wrong.Many times,I cried for him.Just for some stupid things.I hate myself.I hate myself always don't know how to take good care of him.He is always feeling not well.I don't know what I can do.Useless me,I keep on blaming myself.Blaming myself because I can't do anything at that time.I'm not a perfect girlfriend,perhaps.

A short letter for him,

I don't know will you follow my blog.I don't know will you see this post.I just want to tell you,I know you scared me to simply thinking of non-sense.Stupid,I wont simply believe what others say.I believe you,I promise you=) Today,after I telling you something,you showed me your black black face.So fierce for what?Anything I do wrong,forgive me.I don't really mean it.Sorry lak :( By the way,you know I love you,not?Hehe.Are you have the same feeling with me?

#If you make the mistake once,it's not the end of world.Just don't make that mistake twice#

The end,stay turned.Blog will be updated soon

26.04.2011

:)

She just loves to smile and tend not to care about it.

I Wanted You

I wanted you to fight for me.I wanted you to plead to know the meaning behind my''Nothing is wrong''.I wanted you to keep your promises.I wanted you to be there.I wanted you to understand and not threaten to send me away.I wanted you to not make me wait.I wanted you to show up at my door,take me into your arms,and kiss me.I wanted you to want me as muck as I wanted you.

Friends are complaining that I'm emo lately,even a stranger also told me like that.I just smile to them and say:''Am I?''Guys,I know I'm emo recently.I know.I tried to be strong and smile to all my friends and say,I'm okay.No worry.I'm okay now,friends.I wont cried for that things anymore.Thanks for all my friends that always encourage me.Yin Chien,Jing Ying,Sian Huan,Jenny,Yun Ran,Xin Tian,Wen Wen,Ah Seed and Yee Ling thanks you!

I'm happy now

:)

He,is really a good boy friend :) Friends,am I correct?He wont leave me alone.He listened to me.(PS:It is hard to find a boy friend such as him that treat me so good.Really).Plus,friends do you believe he will manja to me.GOSH!He is just like a 3-years-old kid:) He said he is just 3-years-old and I'm 5-years-old.See,childish iszit?But it is our own style to maintain our relationship.Honestly,I'm a selfish girl.I want him to company me all the time.Beside me when I need him.Hug me when I'm sad and say to me:''Stupid,I'm here.Don't cry.''HAHA.I'm thinking too much,I know.I'm feeling that it's sweet when he is beside me.Awww.I very love him.Got a boy asked me:''What do made you so love him?''Stop doing anything and start to think.I also don't know what point that make me so love him.Awwww.I can't control myself.Someone,help me please.

I can't to get hurt anymore from love.Seriously

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